'I wanna see you be brave'

First off, it's been LONG time since I have blogged(oops!) Life has definitely changed for us. Clayton was on August 14th 2013, two days later I got out of hospital and went to Paul's BYU graduation. We then moved to Othello, so we could save some money a before med school. Paul was the Athletic Trainer(Sports Medicine) for the high school. We applied to schools and all the process that goes with applying to med school. Paul got into his top choice, Go Paul! On July 21st we moved to Yakima, Washington to start our long, but exciting adventure of med school. We already love it here, our ward is so welcoming. The med students and their spouses have been AWESOME! By everyone being so welcoming has really made this transition a lot smoother, at least for me. Paul is the outgoing person in our relationship, I'm the quiet one who doesn't say much when we get in big groups, but if I'm in a small group I am more outgoing. I guess there can't be two outgoing personalities in a relationship, right? Paul has had orientation all week, which has been good and bad I guess you can say. Good part is he has been getting home around 3 or 4 each day. The bad part- I have been anticipating of being a med school widow and I just want it to either happen or not happen. Next week everything will sink in, Paul getting up early for school and being in class from 8-5 and then being gone all night to study and me putting the kids to bed all by myself. Boo! This week I have been so moody and emotional.I have had a couple wive's telling me this happened to them last year when their husbands started school. Apart of me thinks I can't do this and I won't be able to handle it, but the other part of me is saying, "I can do this!" I have been listening to General Conference talks each morning as I am making breakfast and with each talk I am hoping I will hear some amazing quote on how to do hard things, but with each talk I hear the same, but powerful lesson: Have faith and the Savior is ALWAYS near whenever we need him and how important the gospel is in our lives. I know that I am going to have some really bad days, and I may say,"This really sucks" but, I do KNOW the Savior will be right beside me cheering me on and giving me the strength I need to be a great mom and wife. How blessed I am to know the Savior loves me and that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true! How lost I would be without the true and everlasting gospel. So here goes to a new school year,new trials, new adventure, new friends and new memories!